The Oxford Dictionary states: home (n) the place where one lives permanently.
 
Growing up I learned this magical technique that allowed me to leave my body to survive some traumatic experiences. It became my default. I got so good at it I didn’t know when or how to stop. Before I knew it, I’d completely rejected my body along with the truth and wisdom that resided there. Since I was never IN my body, I didn’t learn about emotions and how to interact and FEEL them. I was numb, scared, lost and confused floating like a living bobble-head.
 
At 30 I turned to alcohol which became my solution for the next 8 years. Then one day, it no longer worked. Feeling hopeless, full of fear and powerless I admitted my defeat.
 
I began to seek support in order to cope with my childhood trauma. I was told about Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), a treatment designed to alleviate distress from those with traumatic memories. I found a licensed practitioner and began the process of facing some of my greatest fears. One central part of EMDR is feeling bodily sensations – but how? I wasn’t IN my body. Subsequently, I left many sessions feeling frustrated and angry with myself because I wasn’t “doing it right”. At the time, I didn’t know I was missing a key link. I hadn’t found “home” yet. My body moved, but my spirit and life force was either floating above my head or following slowly behind. My spirit had nowhere to land.
 
I was then introduced to The Wilderness Walk. Through this powerful journey, I found the missing link I’d been looking for. I found my body AND my spirit.
 
I developed a deeper sense of curiosity and began experimenting numerous ways of connecting to my body – I became my own internal scientist.
 
Below are a few ways that work for me – maybe they’ll work for you too:
 
1 – Get out in Nature: Feel the Earth under your feet, BREATHE in her fresh cleansing air, become aware of her magnificent trees and notice how no two are the same.
 
2 – Move your body: I like to combine getting out in Nature and walking. Before any hike, I send a prayer to my God and ask if there’s something I need to know and that it be revealed to me as I walk. (My daughter likes this one too!)
 
3 – Getting quiet: In the mornings, I sit on my yoga mat and press my sit bones into the ground. I imagine connecting with the Earth, and FEEL the sensation of gravity pulling my body down to the Earth.
 
4 – Staying present: When having a conversation with another really listen to what they have to say. Try doing so WITHOUT responding.
 
I now know I am not just a body, I also have a spirit. And today, my spirit has found a home.
 
Do YOU live in your body? Do you allow yourself to FEEL?
 
~Allison
Walker – Arizona
By | 2018-01-22T18:53:00+00:00 March 13th, 2017|Uncategorized|8 Comments

8 Comments

  1. Karen March 13, 2017 at 5:10 pm - Reply

    You have come such a long way since I met you Allison. Thank you for sharing some of the wisdom you are learning as you walk. Love you!

  2. Terri DeMontrond March 13, 2017 at 9:19 pm - Reply

    Thank you for educating me on what it means to not be in your body. Having words to articulate a state of being, to hear of the actual experience and how it happens was eye opening for me. Sharing how your awareness has helped you understand it and respond to those moments is big wisdom to share with others Allison. It’s an honor to share the trail with you and witness how we have all grown and continue to grow on our own unique paths. Much love to you always…xoxox

    • Allison McDanel March 28, 2017 at 2:54 pm - Reply

      I’m so honored my words spoke to you Terri. I’m just so grateful to have those experiences to share with others. 10 years ago, I would have NEVER said I was grateful for those events. But I am, because it’s made me who I am today. And, it allows me to help and others which is my heart’s desire! XOXOX

  3. Meghan March 13, 2017 at 11:18 pm - Reply

    I love these practical tips that you’re sharing from your very personal experience. That’s the power of vulnerability!!! Thank you, Allison

    • Allison McDanel March 28, 2017 at 2:59 pm - Reply

      Who would have thought?!?! That’s the power of healing, yeah? #healingrevolution #groundingspace #WALKFEST

  4. Mary Ottman March 14, 2017 at 4:28 am - Reply

    What a great blog post, Allison! This really helped me to understand what being out of your body looks and feels like. Thank you! And I loved your ideas for grounding too. Sending you all the hugs and love I have in me!❤

  5. Allison McDanel March 28, 2017 at 3:01 pm - Reply

    Have you had a chance yet to try the ideas I shared? How did you feel afterwards? Love you Mary O.!!!!

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