Almost a decade ago I hit bottom in an unhealthy relationship. I was dying a certain emotional, spiritual death and I felt lost. I was a successful psychotherapist and coach and yet struggled with facing my greatest fear; my fear of being alone. After losing pieces of myself over the years I finally found twenty seconds of insane courage to leave and make a change. Together with my Golden Retriever, Grace, I began a healing journey of self discovery.
At the time, I did not understand how a walk in the woods would transform my life.
Off and on for three years, Grace and I traveled and spent 8-10 hours a day walking in the vast wilderness of the United States. I immersed myself in unnerving solitude. Stepping into the forest of perpetual unknowns heightens your senses. The dense forest nurtures a sense of claustrophobia inside you even though the woodland stretches unbroken for miles. There was no map for me to follow. Some days there was no sign of life anywhere – just the sounds of nature, my heartbeat, the pitter patter of paws on the forest floor and my laboring breath to take me through. The pain I felt on the trail, the tears I cried, the dark shadows I faced were some of the most difficult yet illuminating days of my life. With each trail-head I got stronger and with each step of those 1,000 miles traveled I crushed the doubt that had once consumed me. I found something vital on my Wilderness Walk, I found me.
Through this journey a Divine mission was placed on my heart to go and teach others about what our own internal Wilderness is here to teach us about our deepest truth.